Master left this morning...i did...ok. Ok meaning i only
cried 2-3 times rather than crying continuously. sighs... Seeing Him
drive down the road was the hardest thing i've done in a long time. i
know it's only for 3 weeks...i know that when He comes back down, it's
for good. He says "then you'll be stuck with me" smiles softly stuck is not the word that comes to MY mind though.
Then i will be complete and i can spend the rest of my life serving and loving this Man who has changed mine in the most incredible way. The kids were upset too although they handled it better than i did. Except for my 13 year old son. He was visibly upset and trying hard to hide it.
Master told me to make Him proud and that's exactly what i intend to do. I will admit that i keep tearing up...walking into O/our room, walking into the office and seeing His spot at the desk He built for U/us empty. Its a pain i can't even begin to describe...but there's no way i will disappoint Him by letting myself become incapacitated with sadness.
i want to see the pride on His face and the happiness when He sees what i've accomplished while W/we endure this last separation. But it is by far the hardest separation since W/we've been together.
This morning Master said to me "Just think...this is the last time. Last year W/we were talking about how often W/we could visit each other and now look at U/us" and He's right...
i am so in love with Him and i miss Him SO much already...but i can do this...and i just hope that the next three weeks don't drag TOO much. Maybe if i stay focused on pleasing Him and getting a lot accomplished, it'll go by faster.
i hope so...
Then i will be complete and i can spend the rest of my life serving and loving this Man who has changed mine in the most incredible way. The kids were upset too although they handled it better than i did. Except for my 13 year old son. He was visibly upset and trying hard to hide it.
Master told me to make Him proud and that's exactly what i intend to do. I will admit that i keep tearing up...walking into O/our room, walking into the office and seeing His spot at the desk He built for U/us empty. Its a pain i can't even begin to describe...but there's no way i will disappoint Him by letting myself become incapacitated with sadness.
i want to see the pride on His face and the happiness when He sees what i've accomplished while W/we endure this last separation. But it is by far the hardest separation since W/we've been together.
This morning Master said to me "Just think...this is the last time. Last year W/we were talking about how often W/we could visit each other and now look at U/us" and He's right...
i am so in love with Him and i miss Him SO much already...but i can do this...and i just hope that the next three weeks don't drag TOO much. Maybe if i stay focused on pleasing Him and getting a lot accomplished, it'll go by faster.
i hope so...
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